Writing When You Don’t Feel Like Writing

I call myself a writer. I am a writer, in the past, now, and in the future. But there are days when I really don’t feel like writing.

There were years in times past where I never wrote anything except news articles and the odd lesson plan. Those memories of the old days make me always a bit guilty when I go a day without writing.

I’m a little irritated that I haven’t done a new podcast recently. That doesn’t make a lot of sense to me, since it’s not like I’m trying to monetize it (yet) or that I’m that experienced at it. But if I consider myself a creative person, I need to create and hustle, right?

It’s sort of like some aspects of teaching for me. There are times when I have fun in the classroom, especially teaching writing. (That likely will be worthy of at least a few later posts). However, I can take or leave having to sit down and grade stuff.

The point is that there always are things that you can take or leave about any job or any passion. Sometimes you get in the groove and can write for hours and hours. And there’s other times that I can stare at that screen and want to do anything else.

There’s times when I just need to get distracted, to be honest. Today I wanted to just relax before getting back into the groove of the teaching week. (Last year in the classroom was massively stressful for me. I’m feeling much more comfortable in my new district.)

So, I sat down for the day. I checked out the Italian Grand Prix, as I’ve started to get into Formula One this year. I watched Liverpool beat Leeds today 3-0 and saw poor Harry Wilson get his ankle done in. I saw Aaron Rodgers and the Packers get whipped, and now I’ve got Football Night In America on.

For the later part of the day, I’ve had my son back home for the day after he moved to Des Moines for a new job. I enjoyed watching the games with him and dinner, even if he snoozed through a good part of it.

And, all this time I thought I didn’t really have anything to write about. Maybe this wasn’t the perfect post, but at least I wrote something.

Sometimes that is good enough.

Writing Journal 9.1.2021: The start of teaching… and no difference in production? Really?

Yeah, just easing into September… and restarting teaching again, in a new district, and… it’s going well. The staff have been great to work with, and I’m starting to get to know the kids and getting into the routines of another school year.

It’s been a bizarre week to be honest. After having my young adult daughter and son living with us in our comfy home for the past half year, we are suddenly going to find ourselves empty nesters once again. Daughter Madeline has returned to her studies on campus at the University of Iowa, while my son happened upon a new job in Des Moines doing maintenance for a hotel. I’ve never been a maintenance kind of guy, but I do envy him living in the heart of a bit city with just a five-minute walk to work. I’m hoping those are just the start of their adventures.

As for myself, I am surprised that my production for this past week was statistically unchanged from the previous week – essentially, not a star turn but not total rubbish, either. I was hoping to have better production over the weekend, but that was not to be and my Labor Day weekend looks to be busy. So, we will see. I have had some hard words this week to get out, but I powered through it and glad with what I have gotten.

On another note, remember when, among other things, I bemoaned not having an Alphasmart anymore? Well, I managed to get myself an Alphasmart Neo 2 in very good condition. Once I get a proper USB cord for it, I just might start putting it to use. Wish me luck.

And, as always, here’s the stats. Stay safe out there – things are getting a bit more virusy as we get into fall.

Writing statistics for the week ending 8.28.2021:
+2,676 words written.
Days writing: 5 of 7.
Days revising/planning: 0 of 7 for 0 total minutes.
Daily Writing Goals Met (500+ words or 30 minutes of planning/revisions): 4 of 7 days.

Writing Journal 6.12.2021: June is starting off rough, but I’m hoping for a turnaround

[OBLIGATORY AT THIS POINT PHOTO NOTE: Since we are now well into June and everyone is thinking of sun and warm days, I decided to use a photo my wife recently took of our local waterpark/pool. She’s been spending a lot of time there, not to get rays, but due to the fact that the city owns it and she (as city manager) is trying to help out due to some short-staffing issues. Anyway…]

Yup, as I feared during my last writing journal, this past week’s writing totals stunk up the joint. I think that they might actually be the worst weekly totals of the entire year. (Lies – One week back in January I had half the total of last week’s.) I’m going to put it down to pure procrastination and end-of-school-year vibes. As I write this, I’m hopeful that the extra time I’m going to have will give me more opportunities to write.

Picture related

So, with all that said, and not much else to say for this post, here’s the numbers for last week. Short and sweet – hope the summer is getting to a good start.

Writing totals for the week ending 6.5.2021:
+976 words written.
Days writing:  3 of 7.
Days revising/planning: 0 of 7 for 0 total minutes.
Daily Writing Goals Met (500+ words or 30 minutes of planning/revisions): 0 of 7 days.

Writing Journal 3.27.2021: I did better this week… sort of. A vacation is a vacation.

[AUTHOR’S NOTE 3/28/2021, 12:38 p.m. Central Time: I have no idea why this published Sunday rather than Saturday like I had intended. Must have pushed the wrong electronic button. Carry on.]

PHOTO NOTE: This was what popped up when I did a Pexels image search for “spring break.” You’re welcome.

Hi, everyone.

As with the past few journals, I’m keeping this one short. However, I do feel gratified that my plan to put out these journals seems to be working out. Reporting on the previous week’s work the Saturday after that week rather than the very next day (Sunday) seems to have taken more than a little bit of the deadline pressure off.

The previous week’s writings went… not bad. There was a bit more production from me, but not consistently – spring break and all that. I’m rather looking forward to the summer break… after 50 or so more days of school from now until early June.

There’s a little more than just that behind things… but I’ll let that sit for a while. As usual, I want to try and keep this totally focused on writing… although, as you have seen before, it crosses into the personal more than a few times.

My mental moods often play a role into my productivity. I am always in a better mood if I am productive, to some degree, with my writing. If I manage to get my quota done for the day, I always feel like I accomplished something. I tend to be more productive when I am in a positive frame of mind. When I’m in a negative mind-set, however, especially if I’m feeling depressed or hopeless about something, there are some of those times that I feel like I don’t want to write anything. I think that’s a shame, because if I can be productive, that can cheer me up. I will have to think about how I can do that more to help in those situations, but they are not common and becoming less so.

Speaking of mental moods – we just celebrated my daughter’s birthday on March 21. It’s bizarre that I never knew her for the first nearly thirty years of my life and now that she has turned 19, I can’t picture life without her. I may be a softie, but I have been happy to have her at home this spring as she continues to attend U of Iowa virtually due to the pandemic. I’m going to have a birthday soon, but that’s just another thing to me. 🙂

What could I do to try and make things a challenge this week? How about… I actually try and work on some non-journal blogs when I have the time? Am I going to promise you that I’ll get one of them done? No, but I’m going to see if I can’t work on that blog post maybe… three times this week? (I’ll try and report my success or lack of it as soon as I can. EDIT: Mission accomplished.)

AUTHOR’S NOTE: Given the change in my format and schedule for releasing these journals, I am now dating them on the Saturday of the week it covers. Previously, the dates were on the Sunday of the previous week.

Week of 3.20.2021:
+5,858 words written.
Days writing:  5 of 7.
Days revising/planning: 0 of 7 for  0 total minutes.
Daily Writing Goals Met (500+ words or 30 minutes of planning/revisions): 4 of 7 days.

Writing Journal 2.20.2021: It’s nice that I’m not blowing my journal writing deadlines at least

Well, it appears that reporting a week later than I had been was the way to make sure that I didn’t miss my deadline. Who would have thought that as a possibility?

My writing on my fanfic project continues at a steady clip, although I’m now starting to consider a new fantasy world… of my own design. Although I had some good initial experiments and Wonderdraft is turning out to be a good tool, I had to retool my map. And, I think I’m getting something that has promise… but I’ll talk more about it some other time.

With the school year and COVID still on the warpath, I’m doubting that I’ll be able to get out and about for too much having anything to do with books (mine or anyone else’s) or local writers until summer happens. I’m looking forward to that very much.

There’s more than a couple of snow days I’ve had in the past several weeks. At this point school will be ongoing until the first week of June at the very least, although I think the cold is finally going to lift here pretty soon. It does not really matter to me.

I might have some IRL announcements to make on that level… but not yet; I’ll hold off for a while.

Anyway, here’s the stats. I saw a slight improvement over the previous week’s numbers – hope I do even better this week.

Writers keep writing and everyone keep safe.

Week of 2.7.2021:
+3,004 words written.
Days writing: 4 of 7.
Days revising/planning: 3 of 7 for 150 total minutes.
Daily Writing Goals Met (500+ words or 30 minutes of planning/revisions): 6 of 7 days.

Writing Journal 12.28.2020: Guess who got really lazy this month? Me.

[Author’s Note: The feature photo for this post is my bed because since I’ve been so lazy, that seems to be the only thing that could properly symbolize the past three weeks for me. Anyway, enjoy.]

Where, oh where has Liegois been for the past few weeks? The mind reels…

Photo by Anna Shvets on Pexels.com

Actually, it’s not too hard of an explanation to make. Since I’ve decided to make time out of my busy schedule (during winter break, ha ha) to sit down and post a blog, I might as well give as full of an explanation as I can.

– As usual, a hiatus in my writing means that I’m stuck on something that I’d rather not finish or I’m not in the mood to finish. Usually, I get around that by writing the exciting parts of a story I’m working on first and then maybe get to the sucky parts later (or maybe not, and all the better for it). It’s difficult to do this in the serialized fan fiction that I’m working on at the moment.

If there is one way COVID-19 has affected me personally (and let me hope that is the only way it affects me), it and my move out to south central Iowa has put a bit of a damper on any attempts at “serious” writing. It’s usually not a good idea to try and have meet and greets and signings for books in the midst of a pandemic, I’m still not knowledgeable about the writing scene here and in Des Moines, and my day job has been taking up a lot of my head space. Bottom line, that has been put on hold. (Maybe now was a good time to get into writing some fan fiction?)

Anyway, I’ve pushed through the writing blocks, taken all of the mental vacations possible, and now I’m getting back to writing. I never really stopped, actually, except for a few days in a row. It’s certainly not the type of production I was hoping for. Here’s to a massively productive last week of 2020 to put me over the top.

I’m not sure what my numbers are looking like for this year, to be honest. People who have read this before might know I keep track of that metadata. I’ll have to get a new “in-review” post for 2020 ready soon, maybe as soon as this week. Next week I’ll have off for part of it, but I’ll have to get work done once again.

Also, all of my posting on my social media sites for writing on Facebook and Twitter have dwindled down to just reposts of my blogs. I’m really not as enthused about posting regularly as I used to be. I’m not spending as much time as I used to on social media at all.

Part of that is my growing distaste for Facebook in particular, for the misinformation and basically racist material it has allowed to be posted on its site. It’s very clear to me that the only thing it cares about is cash. The only reason I maintain an account on Facebook now (I deleted the app from my phone for the fifth time last month and that has finally stuck) is to keep in contact with family and old friends. I have a small bit of nostalgia for my Facebook writing page because it was the first one I created under my own name. (I am slightly more active on my writing Twitter, but not by much.)

The minute there is a better alternative out there for me, I will be happy to move to that place. If the federal government wants to break up Facebook for monopoly purposes, I would be one of the first ones applauding. (End of semi-political rant.)

Now, it will be time to write to my heart’s content and get a whole bunch of things accomplished in the last week of the year, write some more blogs that have been lingering around in my drafts ahahahah…

Well, we’ll see what I actually accomplish.

Anyway, here’s the stats. Writers keep writing and everyone keep safe.

Week of 12.6.2020:
+1,424 words written.
Days writing: 2 of 7.
Days revising/planning: 2 of 7 for 180 total minutes.
Daily Writing Goals Met (500+ words or 30 minutes of planning/revisions): 3 of 7 days.

Week of 12.13.2020:
+1,036 words written.
Days writing: 3 of 7.
Days revising/planning: 0 of 7 for 0 total minutes.
Daily Writing Goals Met (500+ words or 30 minutes of planning/revisions): 3 of 7 days.

Week of 12.20.2020:
+4,004 words written.
Days writing: 4 of 7.
Days revising/planning: 2 of 7 for 120 total minutes.
Daily Writing Goals Met (500+ words or 30 minutes of planning/revisions): 6 of 7 days.

Writing Journal 11.22.2020: Ups and downs over November

Hey, letting everyone know I’m not dead, just procrastinating.

The procrastination affected me two weeks ago, for sure, but I had a great week last week. You’ll see the totals below.

I’m totally stalling on more blog entries. They are coming (maybe), but it’s been hard to self-motivate. I can start to relate to some of my students who absolutely hate doing work in the classroom. I recently read something that procrastination is not something that stems from mental weakness and/or laziness but as an avoidance from unpleasant experiences. That seems to fit with my experiences. Now I think I need to do some research on what I can do to fight that, because it kicks me just as hard as any student.

IRL, my 20-year-old kid has moved back in with us to get himself resettled, more or less. He is living in a totally new community, but he has been game to get adjusted and find work in his field (heating and air conditioning). With my daughter back for Thanksgiving break from her college, we have a packed house… and I’m happy about it.

Anyway, I’m listing the totals before. Hope I see an improvement over the previous year, but I have at least another month to run up the totals, so to speak.

Writers keep writing, and everyone keep safe.

Week of 11.8.2020:
+2,662 words written.
Days writing: 5 of 7.
Days revising/planning: 0 of 7 for 0 total minutes.
Daily Writing Goals Met (500+ words or 30 minutes of planning/revisions): 2 of 7 days.
Week of 11.15.2020:
+6,118 words written.
Days writing: 5 of 7.
Days revising/planning: 2 of 7 for 180 total minutes.
Daily Writing Goals Met (500+ words or 30 minutes of planning/revisions): 6 of 7 days.

Writing Journal, 10.11.2020: Slow start to October, to be honest

Not much to write about for the past two weeks, because… I haven’t been doing much writing. At least, not as much as I want.

Work has been busy, enough so that I’ve looked longingly at my father’s retirement-life schedule. 🙂 But, I am getting through things.

I’ve been a little disappointed that I have not had the mental energy to try and reach out to fellow writers in the Des Moines area or my town’s area to try and network. Part of that is COVID, and part of that has been the grind that any typical school year is.

I think another issue is that I’m beginning to get really over Facebook, which might still be the best way to get in contact with other writers or network. Frankly, if it was not for this blog and its “companion page” on Facebook, I would delete my account for sure. I have deleted the app from my phone for at least the fifth or sixth time and it has stayed off, to my delight.

That’s not to say I’m not online. I’m staying on Reddit and Twitter, although I only go on Twitter sporadically. I spend a lot of time on Archive Of Our Own (AO3), the fan fiction site where I have been posting my most recent writings. There are several stories there I am following, and it has been a great mental break to read stuff there.

I think I will wrap it up there. Not sure if I will continue to post journal entries every two weeks or try and get it back up to weekly. I will see.

The stats for the last two weeks are below. The first week I exceeded my quota: 500 words per day over the week or the planning/revising equivalent (30 minute per day), which would add up to 3,500 words per week or the equivalent. The second week I wasn’t so lucky.

Keep safe, everyone.

Week of 9.27.2020:
+4,151 words written.
Days writing: 6 of 7.
Days revising/planning: 2 of 7 for 90 total minutes.
Daily Writing Goals Met (500+ words or 30 minutes of planning/revisions): 6 of 7 days.

Week of 10.4.2020:
+2,228 words written.
Days writing: 4 of 7.
Days revising/planning: 2 of 7 for 60 total minutes.
Daily Writing Goals Met (500+ words or 30 minutes of planning/revisions): 4 of 7 days.

Writing Journal 7.26.2020: Moving my base of operations took a toll on my writing these past two weeks

So, after letting you know what was going on almost a year ago, the move’s finally happened.

I officially transferred the flag, so to speak, to the new home in South Central Iowa about three days ago. It’s all still a new experience to me. I like the new home, even though getting to the master bedroom is a bit of a climb. I do appreciate that it’s smaller and more easily maintainable than the place I lived in for 13 years.

This year is easily going to be the biggest “transition” year of my life for some time. I have one child living and working on his own and the other is preparing to head to college soon (what that will look like is soon to be determined). I am several weeks away from starting a new teaching assignment, though what that will look like is still up in the air, being new to the district and with the current pandemic.

Naturally, with emptying out the old place and cleaning it, and filling the new place and cleaning it, it took a toll on my writing time, especially this past week in the midst of the move. As always, I’ll post the weekly total (in this case, the two-week total) at the end.

Getting your writing environment right is a discussion within itself. I realize now after the fact that I had nailed down my old writing space where I’d spent many a night writing what turned out to be the majority of my written work. Now I am in the process of creating something that will meet my needs. How well I do that and how fast of a process it will take is, again, something yet to be determined.

The good news is that the move has been quite inspirational for me as far as blogging goes. For anyone that just started following this blog, I needed to give a bit of explanation. For as much as my memory can fade or be filled with other items, I never thought that I would be one of those ones who would ever be interested in doing a memoir. To be honest, my own life doesn’t really have the kind of excitement that would attract many readers.

Over the course of this blog, however, I ended up creating a Writer’s Biography of tales, essentially talking about things in my life that had to do with my life and evolution as a writer. In looking back at that collection of stories, however, it appears I have not written a new one in nearly a year. As of right now, this move seems to have inspired no less than three new posts, one for each of the volumes in the collection. (Volume I stories cover topics that had to do with or began during my childhood; Volume II stories cover topics of when I was a young adult, and Volume III stories are about what has happened roughly since I began rededicating myself to writing.)

So, you’ll see that, and likely another link to a video review of the next section of Lord of the Rings that I’ve read. I’m hoping to get all of it down by the time school starts up again.

Also, apparently, I passed the 300-post mark sometime during the past few weeks. Three years and 300 posts, both good numbers.

Anyway, here’s my joke of writing stats for the past two weeks. Enjoy and stay safe.

Week of July 12:
+6,859 words written.
Days writing: 5 of 7.
Days revising/planning: 1 of 7 for 60 total minutes.
Daily Writing Goals Met (500+ words or 30 minutes of planning/revisions): 5 of 7 days.

Week of July 19:
+153 words written.
Days writing: 1 of 7.
Days revising/planning: 0 of 7 for 0 total minutes.
Daily Writing Goals Met (500+ words or 30 minutes of planning/revisions): 0 of 7 days.

Writing Journal 7.8.2020 (Delayed from 7.5.2020): An improvement over last week and a good way to start July (even though I’m going to be so busy this month)

I’d just like to start out this entry by saying this is the longest title of any blog post I’ve made up to this point, I think.

So, there’s a whole bunch of things that are distracting from me and writing at this point.

After nearly 20 years of life, my son is now living on his own in the big city of Iowa City, starting his career in HVAC and styling in his own apartment. No matter what we have gone through, I’m still going to worry about him as much as I did when he went to kindergarten for the first time. I literally do not remember when I was not someone’s father at this point, and I am at peace with that.

My daughter and I am the last members of my immediate clan living in my old hometown. I am desperately not trying to crack The Last of Us jokes and failing. In the fall, she is going to attend UIowa and be a chem engineer like her grandfather. She’s so smart and terrific and I hope she knows it.

By the end of the month, I will be reunited with the love of my life in south central Iowa and my daughter will spend some time there before going to Iowa City. My daughter will be learning and not be sure what that will look like; I will be teaching special education in another district and have no idea what that will look like, all due to COVID-19 lol.

So, that’s what I’m dealing with. Essentially, if you get any communication from me this month, be surprised. I will be busy. But, I will still write, because that keeps me sane always.

Anyway, here’s last week’s totals. A better week than last week, at least. I’ll post a blog on my first half of a year the day after this runs. Writers, keep writing, and everyone else stay safe.

6,163+ words written.
Days writing: 6 of 7.
Days revising/planning: 0 of 7 for 0 total minutes.
Daily Writing Goals Met (500+ words or 30 minutes of planning/revisions): 5 of 7 days.